Today’s guest author is Diana Roark whom I met through her very open and honest blog, Trying To Make Things Right. She is an amazing young woman who enjoys reading, camping, fishing, going to church, traveling, and gaming. Her favorite games are anything zombie related, and she is a huge zombie fan (About). But most of all, after dealing with alcoholism from a very young age, today she is living a clean and sober life! This is her story:
Against All Odds
Written by Diana Roark
My name is Diana, I am a 29-year-old wife and mother of 4 boys and a daughter who passed away in 2008. I am also a recovering drug addict and alcoholic. I have been clean and sober for 3 years and 2 months.
I am extremely grateful to my husband because if not for him I doubt I would have ever even attempted to get sober. You see I had a very long and deeply ingrained love for alcohol.
My first time experiencing the effects of it was at the age of 9, when my mother got me drunk for the first time. By the age of 12 I was stealing a six-pack a day from my dad, who was also an alcoholic so he didn’t even notice, but I was slipping farther and farther into addiction.
By 14 my parents knew very well what was going on, and their way of handling it was to crack jokes and call me their little alkie. At 15 I had been in and out of detention centers, mental institutions and I had legally died from overdosing on alcohol. I was binge drinking every day, I dropped out of school, and left home because I didn’t want to watch my mother and step father beat the crap out of each other anymore. I was able to graduate my court ordered AA though; my mother was very helpful, she informed me that as long as I didn’t drink on the day of my meetings I would pass my drug tests just fine.
Things continued to get worse and by 17 I was hanging out with people who were pretty heavy into coke, pills and basically anything they could get their hands on. Luckily, and strongly enough I was very against drugs. One night at a party I met Darrell, who asked me to go to dinner with him, which was a first for me, since all I had ever been asked was, “Hey you want to go get drunk?” So I was already impressed. We dated for about 2 weeks when he smoked crack at a party, and I told him I couldn’t be with someone who did drugs. We talked for a while and he told me how he had just gotten out of rehab and he was tired of losing everything because of drugs. He swore he would never touch it again if I gave him another chance, so I did and he kept his word. He has been clean from drugs for 14 years now. So we continued on and over the next 9 years I continued drinking, only stopping for my pregnancies.
At 20 I started getting ovarian cysts which are very painful, the doctors prescribed a lot of pain medication and to make a long story short, I got addicted to the pain killers. I went to the ER often to get pain meds and when they stopped prescribing them I started buying them on the street.
I hit rock bottom at 26 when I left my family. I had been gone for about a month, staying at my dad’s and I was drinking a half-gallon plus a 12-pack every day – as soon as I opened my eyes I would open a beer and I didn’t stop until I went to sleep.
I talked to Darrell one day and he said if I would come up and stay the weekend he would buy some alcohol, I said okay and he bought lots. The next day we talked and he said don’t you miss me and the kids? I said of course I do. One thing led to another and he told me I had to take the first step – he told me to pour out all the alcohol we had left which was quite a bit. I cried while I did it. I relapsed once about a month after this, it was 3 days before our wedding and he still married me. That is the day that I swore to myself and to God that I would never touch a drink or a pill again, and I have not.
I have a wonderful life now, dedicated to God, my family and trying to help people.
To learn more about Diana and her many passions please visit her blog Trying To Make Things Right.
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