Sometimes You Might Miss Your Drinking Life

Staying sober especially in early recovery can be quite a challenge. Being drunk may have been your default state for a very long time, and a normal part of your life. Being sober may now seem unnatural, and quite uncomfortable, and you may often miss your drinking lifestyle.

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When I embarked on this journey, I had no idea what my future life would look like. Everything in my life seemed so very serious. It was all recovery and 12-step work, and meetings with my sponsor, and therapy. I was very grateful that all those things were in my life. However, sometimes, I felt the need for a break, and I missed having fun; the kind of fun that I used to have… a very long time ago before my drinking got out of hand.

Of course I did not miss the hangovers, the financial problems, the health issues, the panic attacks, or the repercussions of blackouts. But, I missed the simple, drunk socialization while sitting on a bar stool at the local dive where “Everyone knew my name!”

However, I also knew that at this point I could not handle that kind of thing whats so ever!

And you too, may still crave being drunk and “social.” This is a normal part of recovery – a sort of a grieving of the old life as your new life is starting to take shape. You may not crave the drink itself but the buzz, the high, the greatly relaxing feelings that flow all over and make all your troubles just seem to melt away instantaneously.

Unfortunately, we have to remember the reality, and for me this changed very abruptly at some point. I no longer drank to relax and enjoy. I just drank. There was no reason. I drank not to feel anything or to feel something even more. That did not work. Except it made me not care about anything.

Today, as a sober person, I have to learn how to deal with life, my life on life’s terms. For me I find it helpful to look beyond the fun, and beyond the people that seem to be having fun while they have a few drinks. My fantasy may start this way but the rest of the night would not look or end so well. And just like on the TV or the advertisements that make everything look fun and glamorous, I have to remember the reality of the hangovers, the blackouts, and the resulting consequences that I had to deal with the next day.

But recovery has taught me that getting sober and staying sober are two different things. Both require work, and practicing not drinking even if we want to. Staying sober involves changing myself so I am healthy mentally and emotionally. It may be a slow process in general, but the results are wonderful and allow me to be happy and free.

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Recovery has also given me many more tools and a real chance at happiness and fun! I am actually able to manage my feelings. I am able to enjoy the moments, and actually BE happy, and feel real happiness. Feelings are no longer so scary and I no longer have a need to bury them deep down. I understand that they are just feelings and they change and go away.

Recovery is also learning to cope without alcohol. This step is crucial to a solid foundation to a life without drinking. If you do not learn how to cope, you are likely to return to drinking, because it will always look easier and more favorable.

Recovery also means doing things outside of recovery. It is important to add other activities besides recover to your life – volunteering, hobbies, reading something other than self-help or recovery literature, and learning to talk about something other than recovery. It is all about balance and not overdoing it on everything.

Recovery is also changing our thinking. I do not stay sober by thinking about not drinking. I simply am sober because I found a way to enjoy life without alcohol. I also let go of the idea that drinking was useful and fun for me. When I am in acceptance of this concept, I am in a neutral place, I do not need to think about drinking, nor do I think about not drinking. Then not drinking becomes the new normal in my life and I no longer miss the drinking lifestyle.

How about you? Do you ever miss your drinking life?


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8 Comments Add yours

  1. ainsobriety says:

    No. I just don’t anymore. My sober life is so much better than I could have ever imagined.
    No contest.

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    1. Yes! Totally agree! Whoop whoop!

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  2. abbiegrrl says:

    I miss the parts when I was a “fantastic” singer, an “incredible” dancer and had large(r) breasts. 😉 I was a legend in my own mind.

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    1. Lol! You too! I was a badass for sure… Thought I had it all till I had nothing. Ugh. What a fantasy! 😝

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  3. elvagreen123 says:

    I do not miss my drinking life. I was on the bus the other day and I realized that as an alcoholic, the only thing that will make me feel as good as I thought I felt with those first few drinks, is alcohol. and when I drink alcohol, nothing else is as important to me. For me, nothing takes the place of alcohol. However, I can never stop at just a few. I get to that point of euphoria and then I have to keep drinking until I wind up in a nightmare. Today being sober, I have to experience the slings and arrows of living (boo hoo), and I get to be fully present in every experience. I was not fully present when I drank. I stay sober to experience life, and sometimes I feel really bad, and other times I feel really good.

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    1. So very true! I don’t miss my drinking life anymore either, but there was a time early on that I did. I think it wasn’t until I learned that the “euphoria” was short lived when I was drinking, and that the real life was the key to happiness. It took a while to transition, but I know that when I did, it was also the moment I knew that I could stay sober no matter what.

      Thanks for the great comment! Sending hugs!

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  4. Hi, Great Post!! I would get so bored when I was in early recovery that I would miss using sometimes. What really helped me succeed in recovery was discovering hobbies that I was passionate about. I wrote a post; 5 Ways I Stay Happy in Recovery, if you get a chance I would love if you could take a look and let me know what you think. I always enjoy your posts so much, cant wait for the next one. Take care. http://recoveringaddictsexperience.blogspot.ca/2015/09/5-tips-on-how-to-be-happy-in-recovery.html

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