I love the significance of Spring combined with Easter as the time of rebirth and renewal. When I see the little flower buds opening up on the trees and I think about the significance of Easter, I think about the huge transformation that sobriety has made in my life. In a sense when I quit drinking I died, and then I was reborn again in recovery. My life is nothing like what it was when I was drinking, and I am often overwhelmed by this truly unbelievable transformation.
If you are new in recovery you may not see this yet, but just hold on tight, it will happen to you too!
There was a time in my life when I was homeless, alone and broke. I was depressed and filled with shame and guilt from the things I had done in my addiction. My life had become one gigantic mess filled with constant blackouts. I could not make it but a few hours without a drink. I seriously thought that I would just die a drunk, and no one would even know it or care that I was gone. I did not have any hope for anything better than where I was – I believed that I was a broken human being and life was my punishment.
But the morning that I woke up from my last drunk I felt like I just woke up from the dead. I was surprised that I was actually alive. I found myself face-down on the kitchen floor, surrounded by a sea of empty wine boxes. I tried to get up but I couldn’t. As I laid on the floor, I had the moment of clarity (you can read about it HERE) that gave me an inkling, a tiny little inking of hope that there had to be a better way. And there was.
I put all my faith in the unknown and moved towards sobriety. One day at time, sometimes one hour or one minute, I just did not drink. In between those days stuff happened, bad and good, and indifferent. I just did not drink. After a while all those days added up to weeks, months and years.
I know you are thinking that it is not that easy, and you are right, it is not. But than, it is. There were times in my recovery when I made many mistakes and had many troubles in my life. But the only thing I did right in those times was that I did not pick up a drink.
You too can do just that. You can start this great journey to your new life. Just no matter what, do not drink. This alone will improve your well-being, and lead you to growth and changes within that will sculpture you into a new person.
So if you are struggling and feel hopeless, think of that new beginning of the rest of your life, and all the amazing possibilities. You never have to feel alone and broken again. It really can happen to you. All you need is just a little bit of faith and a bunch of hope.
Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words
And never stops at all,
And sweetest in the gale is heard;
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.
I’ve heard it in the chillest land
And on the strangest sea,
Yet never, in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me.
– Emily Dickinson
I still get overwhelmed with emotions when I think about it all. It has been quite a journey! If you had told me then that this was the life that I would be living now, I would have said that you were absolutely crazy!! I seriously have to pinch myself sometimes just to make sure that this is still real. Sobriety is a true gift!
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