In a midst of feeling some deep self-pity, I decided to write a heart-wrenching post about how I was all alone after losing both my bio-mom and my step-mom, and how I was feeling overwhelming sadness about the approaching Mother’s day. But as I was looking at some of the pictures that I wanted to include in the post, my self-pity started turning into gratitude. It was slow and gradual, but the feelings were washing over me as I was going down the memory lane, and I suddenly realized that I was actually smiling.
How often had I been holding on to these memories only wishing that my moms were here to share them with me. Every year I wallow in the fact that they are both gone, and I am now motherless! Oh, how these sadly overpowering feelings give me a strange sense of comfort and calming misery.
Except that I seem to forget that I am a mom now too! I have so many wonderful memories with my kids and very day I get to create these awesome memories with them. It is certainly not fair for me or them to keep holding on to this sadness instead of focusing on what is right in front of me. So this year I am dumping my self-pity, I am done with feeling sorry for myself and sitting in this misery. I am supper grateful that my moms where here for the time that they were given and I cherish all the moments that I got to spend with them. But this Mother’s Day I will remember all the wonderful times that I have had as a mom, and that these gifts would not have been possible if I never got sober! #WeDoRecover
Happy Mother’s Day!
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