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Beautiful Pain – SC Podcast EP_09

It’s great to be back! There are so many things that have happened in the past two weeks! First of all, I have an awesome update about my son and our struggles to help him with his ADHD. I also share a great little story about how I caught a huge, HUGE resentment against my dentist. Then I dive into the sometimes difficult topic of losing and finding myself on social media as I am trying not to compare myself to others, and that leads me right into the deep topic of labels and finding our own recovery identity.

I hope that you really enjoy this episode! Next week with the vacation season fast approaching, I will be sharing some great tips with you on how to survive your vacation sober. Hope you join me then!

And as always, don’t forget to check out all the other great podcasts on the SRN Network.

*** I am currently looking for guests for the podcast to share their recovery and parenting stories! Please email me at if you are interested, I would love to have you on the show!***


JAMA Network | JAMA | The Definition of Alcoholism:

To establish a more precise use of the term alcoholism, a 23-member multidisciplinary committee of the National Council on Alcoholism and Drug Dependence and the American Society of Addiction Medicine conducted a 2-year study of the definition of alcoholism in the light of current concepts. The goals of the committee were to create by consensus a revised definition that is (1) scientifically valid, (2) clinically useful, and (3) understandable by the general public. Therefore, the committee agreed to define alcoholism as a primary, chronic disease with genetic, psychosocial, and environmental factors influencing its development and manifestations. The disease is often progressive and fatal. It is characterized by impaired control over drinking, preoccupation with the drug alcohol, use of alcohol despite adverse consequences, and distortions in thinking, most notably denial. Each of these symptoms may be continuous or periodic. (JAMA. 1992;268:1012-1014)


The article America Lost an Icon to a Drug Overdose — and 128 Other Unnamed People On April 21, 2016 reported that:

“In 1993, at the height of its own epidemic, 41,920 people died from AIDS. Just this past year, the U.S. Centers for Disease Control reported that 47,055 people died from accidental drug overdoses.”


“Beautiful Pain”EMINEM
I can feel the heat rising, everything is on fire
Today is a painful reminder of why
We can only get brighter
The further you put it behind ya

But right now I’m on the inside (Lookin’ out, cause)

I’m standin’ in the flames
It’s a beautiful kind of pain
Settin’ fire to yesterday
Find the light, find the light, find the light

Yesterday was the tornado warning
Today’s like the morning after
Your world is torn in half
You wake in it’s wake to start the mourning process
And rebuilding, you’re still a work in progress
Today’s a whole new chapter
It’s like an enormous asth-ma
Thunderstorm has passed ya
You weathered it and poked it’s eye out
With the thorn bush that you
Used to smell the roses
Stopped to inhale, can’t even tell your nose is, stuffed
So focused on the bright side
Then you floor the gas pedal
And hit the corner fast the more asserted
Never looking back
May hit the curb
But every day is a new learning curve as you
Steer through life, sometimes you might not wanna swerve
But you have to
To avert a disaster
Lucky no permanent damage
Cause they hurt you so bad
It’s like they murdered your ass
And threw dirt on your casket but you’ve returned from the ashes
And that hurt that you have, you just converted to gasoline
And while you’re burning the past, standing in the inferno and chant
You’re so familiarized with what having to swallow this pill is like
It happens all the time, they take your heart and steal your life
And it’s as though you feel you’ve died
Cause you’ve been killed inside
But yet you’re still alive
Which means you will survive
Although today you may weep cause you’re weakened
And everything seems so bleak and hopeless
The light that you’re seekin’
It begins to seep in
That’s the only thing keepin’
You from leapin’ off the mothafreakin’ deep end
And I’m pullin’ for you to push through this feeling
And with a little time that should do the healing
And by tomorrow
You may even feel so good that you’re willing to forgive ’em even after
All the shit you been put through this feeling of resilience is building
And the flames are burning quick as fire would through this building
You’re sealed in but you’re fireproof, flame retardant, you withstood it
And as you climb up to the roof, you’re just chillin’ you look down
Cause you’re so over ’em
You could put the heel of your foot through the ceiling
As time passes
Things change every day
But wounds, wounds heal, but scars still remain the same
But tomorrow today’s going down in flames
Throw the match, set the past ablaze
So feel the fire beneath your feet as you barely even perspire
From the heat
Exhale deep and breathe a sigh of relief
And as you say goodbye to the grief
It’s like watching the walls melt in your prison cell
But you’ve extinguished this living hell
Still a little piece of you dies as you scream
I feel the burn, watch the smoke as I turn
Rising, a phoenix from the flames
I have learned, from fighting fights, that weren’t mine
Not with fists, but with wings that I will fly


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  1. Mag, Just getting caught up with ALL-THINGS-RECOVERY. I am happy to announce I am now following you on SoundCloud. Yay a SoundCloud friend. So here’s my 10 cents. I’m super happy to hear about your son’s progress. These are tough decisions we face. My daughter is on the autistic spectrum (that’s another story altogether). Anyway brava, for getting him the tools he needs to live life fully. Next topic: Social Media and Recovery. Wow, there was nothing you said that didn’t resonate at some level. I’ve slowly, but surely, found my way amongst the masses. The need to define who I am in relation to others can still be overtly obnoxious. Nevertheless, reeling my #identity in has been powerful. Who am I? Who the *** am I? I, like you, continue to redefine my purpose and meaning in this life. I’m not HUGE on any social media platform but I’m busy working and helping. I continue to keep my heart in the right place [for me that is with Love] and good things continue to happen for me and my work. My coach reminds me that things happen in their own organic time, not my full throttle time. LOL My job is to show up and bring my best Lisa. Final thoughts: Just super glad to connect more deeply with you. I’m usually only social (online that is) on Sunday and Monday. So if I ever seem remiss, just know I’m doin’ my thing,which, for me, means no obsessing on social media. (“Practice these principles in all our affairs.” BB of AA) ♥ hugs ( I love your hugs too)

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