I remember being very lonely in my early recovery. I felt broken and I was in lots of pain. By the end of my drinking I had alienated all my friends and there was no one left that would put up with my alcohol induced behavior. My reckless behavior had also left me feeling ashamed and worthless. I had no idea of how to take care for myself, or be kind to me. I had so many negative feelings about who I was, that I certainly could not love myself.
What I did not understand was that I was not my addiction, and my actions did not represent the real person that I am. We all have plenty of good inside of us and we just need to work on bringing this goodness out to shine. So please, take the time to get to know you and learn how to love you. It is a crucial part of recovery, growth and life!
HERE ARE THE 4 WAYS TO LOVE YOURSELF:
1. Stop the negative self-talk. Phrases like I am such a mess, I am just a bad person, I can’t do anything right – do not help you! Instead, choose to tell yourself a different, more self-respectful story whenever the negative voice raises its noise level. Tell yourself helpful things, such as I am a good person, I am a worthy person or I am getting better and I want to continue to stay sober. In the beginning you may be very reluctant to say these things, and it might feel very uncomfortable since you may be so used to the negative talk. BUT. Give it a chance and after a while it will become second nature – remember: all you have to do is believe just a little and your self-esteem will grow!
2. Make peace with yourself. You may have made many bad decisions during your active addiction, but instead of beating yourself up about them, use these experiences as lessons to build on. These lessons will let you become the better person you have always wanted to be. Instead of telling yourself that you just cannot forgive yourself, remind yourself that you would have done better if you knew how and if you were not in the midst of your addiction. Give yourself a break and make peace with that part of you that can sometimes be way too rough on YOU.
3. Speak to yourself as if you were your best friend. Do you speak to yourself in a way that you would never dare speak to a friend? If so, this is extremely telling about how much you are belittling yourself! This is no way to treat you! Instead of scolding yourself as an angry parent might berate a child all the time (and perhaps this is precisely how your mind has taken to viewing yourself), start to talk to yourself as you would do to a friend you care a whole great deal about. Use kind words toward yourself, such as “I am doing so good staying sober another day.” and “I have made a huge progress.” These words will help you, encourage you and allow you to treat and see yourself in a valued and caring way.
4. Surround yourself with people who care. It might be beneficial to distance yourself from those who bring you down. For example being in no relationship is better than being in a wrong one. Know your worth! When you give yourself to those who disrespect you, you lose. Your friends in life should motivate, inspire and respect you. Your circle should be well-rounded and supportive. Keep it tight. Quality over quantity, always. Caring for yourself includes doing all the things you care about, and this may also feel uncomfortable in the beginning, but really it is a matter of realizing that there is nothing selfish about self-care.
I also think that the most important thing to remember is that recovery is a difficult road but it gets much better. Even a little gratitude for who you are becoming right now can make a huge difference in your perspective on life. So use the pain, frustration and inconvenience to motivate you. You are in control of the way you look at life.
So spend some time taking care of yourself! After all you really are worth it – you have gone through the wringer and treated yourself badly in active addiction way too long. It is now time to finally be kind to YOU!!
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