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Hope For The New Year

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Three years ago, I picked up a drink after being in long term recovery and my life had spiraled out of control. Today I am sober by the grace of my higher power and the people that continue to support me and love me unconditionally. This has been a true gift of 2019! However, I am not going to go back and review my 2019, instead, I will put my intentions forward and focus on hope and what it might bring in the year ahead.

My life has been immersed in recovery for quite some time. I had a long and difficult journey to where I am today. I am so very grateful for this life and for sobriety. I have been given another chance and I am reminded so often that even when things get tough there is always hope for a better tomorrow!

And hope is not merely wishful thinking; it is much more than that. Hope is knowing and strongly believing that though one is in a desperate situation, things will improve. This faith and optimism have helped me gather enough courage to get through it all, keep trying, and continue moving forward. Life is constantly changing, just like the weather, no two days are alike. But with hope, the bad days get better, and the great days are proof that hope does work.

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Recovery from Alcohol Use Disorder is so very painstaking. It has so many pieces to it. It’s not just putting down the drink. It’s learning a new way of life. It’s learning to take steps towards a better tomorrow. It’s growing new relationships and mending the old ones. It’s finding courage where there seems to be none. It’s facing life on life’s terms. It’s a journey sometimes one day at a time, one step at a time, or even one breath at a time. But little by little the days start adding up, good things start happening, and our attitude and outlook on life become more optimistic. We grow, we change, we experience all that sobriety can bring and hope is always there to carry us through it all.

So today, on this wonderful first day of 2020, I would like to share some quotes with you. These little paragraphs help me keep hope alive and set my intentions in a positive direction. I hope they can help you too!

So believe it.

Don’t waste another moment doubting or second-guessing what you know deep down inside you to be true. Live courageously and cast your fears aside. Open yourself up to the full spectrum of human experiences that are awaiting you and allow the spiritual essence that is present within us all to guide you. Ask your question sincerely and listen carefully for the reply. It will come. Let down the walls around your heart and love wholeheartedly. You will feel love and warmth greater than anything you’ve ever experienced. Say your prayer with unshakeable faith and wait for the answer. You will be blessed beyond your wildest dreams. You’re not crazy. Trust yourself. –  Chris Assaad

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Rise up

You can rise up from anything. You can completely reinvent yourself. Nothing is permanent. You’re not stuck. You have choices. You can think new thoughts. You can learn something new. You can create new habits. All that matters is that you decide today to believe in yourself! ~ Anonymous

Fucking Up

Hey sweethearts. A reminder: making mistakes in recovery/when you’re trying to quit drinking is not synonymous with going BACK somewhere or losing something. You can’t unlearn what you’ve learned, you can’t EVER undo the good you accumulate, you literally can’t go back in time to the person you were when you started. ~ Holly Glenn Whitaker – Hip Sobriety

Fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It’s not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. ~ Nelson Mandela and spiritual author Marianne Williamson

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Don’t Give up

Cause sometimes you just feel tired, feel weak
And when you feel weak, you feel like you wanna just give up
But you gotta search within you
And gotta find that inner strength
And just pull that shit out of you
And get that motivation to not give up
And not be a quitter, no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face, and collapse ~ Anonymous

Love

It’s love. When we love messy people well, we start to love our messy selves more. And all that love makes us BRAVE. And eventually, Love beats fear. Love Wins. ~ Brené Brown

Happy Sober New Year! May this be your best year ever!




Hope

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Hope is an optimistic state of mind that is based on an expectation of positive outcomes with respect to events and circumstances in one’s life or the world at large.[1] As a verb, its definitions include: “expect with confidence” and “to cherish a desire with anticipation.” – Wikipedia.

Today I received enough encouragement, and positive reinforcement from a completely unlikely source to feel like I actually can keep going. A stark difference from yesterday, when I was in tears, overwhelmed, and feeling completely alone – and damn it, no one even cared to ask me how I was doing! Some days are like that.

Some days, I have no clue what keeps me together. I am just running around trying to remember everything that needs to be done. Those days, I am just seriously wingin’ it… the kids, the laundry, the work, and yeah even the eyeliner!

Nevertheless, most days, I just am reminded that for me (and you!!! Yes YOU!!), GIVING UP is not an option. Those days especially, just a small encouragement, a smile, or a hug can make a whole lot of difference. Those days, even with the slightest moments, and the tiniest lapses of time, I feel hope!

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My life has not been easy but really, who’s life has been. Going through depression and relapse has been quite a journey. But, hope is the one glue that keeps me together. Because no matter how hard things get there is always hope that things will get better. So I keep the hope that I will get through the tough times and I look back on where I was and how I have overcome a whole lot of things.

Alcohol Use Disorder is a dreadful disease that makes us believe that we are doomed forever and our lives are worthless, but the truth is that we are not. I know first hand that when I am sober, I am a pretty awesome human-being who can get through a whole lot of pain by relying on hope to conquer the difficulties.

Hope itself is a spiritual condition where we don’t know what the outcome may be, but we believe and trust that the outcome will be favorable just like Martin Luther King Jr. said: Take the first step in faith. You don‘t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.

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Hope does not have to be religious or judgmental or prejudice. Hope can just be a state of mind, a belief, and an understanding. Hope keeps us going and striving for bigger, better tomorrow. Hope is that thing that we cannot see, touch or smell but we can wholeheartedly feel. Hope is always alive, even when we think there is none. The only time that it is dead is when we are 6 feet under.

At times when I feel hopeless, I like to read some quotes about hope and some those quotes become my mantras for that difficult day or sometimes for that difficult hour.

Here are some of my favorite quotes about Hope:

We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope
Martin Luther King Jr

Hope is being able to see that there is light despite all of the darkness
Desmond Tutu

All that I am, or hope to be, I owe to my angel mother
Abraham Lincoln

Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement.
Nothing can be done without hope and confidence
Helen Keller

Everything that is done in this world is done by hope
Martin Luther King Jr

Never lose hope. Storms make people stronger and never last forever
Roy T. Bennett

Hope itself is like a star – not to be seen in the sunshine of prosperity, and only to be discovered in the night of adversity
Charles Haddon Spurgeon

Walk on with hope in your heart, and you’ll never walk alone
Shah Rukh Khan

Hope keeps me sober when I desperately want to drink to kill the pain and get lost into the oblivion. Hope tells me that if I wait just a little bit, through the moment as it is, that pain will turn into strength which will ultimately propel me forward!


This is a 4 part personal story. Hope is part 4.
To read Part 1Divorce click HERE.
To read Part 2Depression click HERE.
To read Part 3Relapse click HERE.